thinking...

' God never would send you the darkness
if He felt you could bear the light.
But if you would not cling to His guiding hand,
if the way were always bright.
And you would not care to walk by faith,
could you always walk by sight.'

-Found in an old OMF circular letter-



PART 1

Dad just had a minor operation to remove the cataracts on his right eye on tuesday. All went well, thank God. He'll have to go in again though for the other eye..anyways, he's been going around reading. Yes, i repeat..reading! small fine prints on our calendar that have been hanging on the wall since Jan, the typed info-thingy at the bottom of the screen on CNN or any other news for that matter, anything small and fine print he could get his hands on..you name it..he's reading it. Loudly too..

why the sudden enthusiasm?

well apparently, the removal of the cataracts brought clear wonders to even the somewhat familliar surroundings. Our family picture hanging on the living room wall..is to him - beautiful!

Funny how a clearer vision elevates the ordinary and the mundane to a whole new level of intrigue.

To end this 1st part..a pic..

The man himself - my dad. .with the plastic eye cover.

hehe..he does look kinda cute with it :)

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PART 2

Currently:
1. Gearing for Relentless..Nov 22nd-24th, ppl! Registration fee RM15 for workshops and interested in the t-shirt? Rm 20 each, all.
2. Still recovering from a week old flu. Singing's on hold til i'm A-ok...yeah rit! :)
3. Gearing for a mission conference on the 29th Nov - 4th Dec at Port Dickson called 'passion for the impossible'. OMF organised..all psyched up for this. Can't wait. remember what i said about coincidence? ;)
4. Students' sitting for their public exams. Still cant help but have that feeling of knots being all tied up inside as they get ready for it. Wonder sometimes if i could truly say i've done my best? Could i have done better?am praying for the best..
5. Praying hard on next year. EYM's next step? My career next move? My life's plan as a whole? I know its only october but looking back at these past few months, there were many new heights that God brought us to and yet many uncertain valley deep journey that i felt now as i look back was crucial for us to walk through.
Lots of open 'heart-surgery' this year. we were honest..brutally honest. we cried, we prayed, we stood by. and we should! How can we do nothing?
Don't think we're suppose to be 'escapist'..but to face the dust of reality through His strength and eyes..

Life's not perfect..people are ridiculously a pain and situations never really go the way it should but God is still God. Who He is has never changed. though He delays His answers at times, His timing is impecably PERFECT.

As for now..there must be more we could do. I look around...we're not done yet. The Bible says 'Your kingdom come on Earth as it is in Heaven.' Can we truly say we are powerless to change or influence situations? the lone figure sleeping in a makeshift tent of boxes at the dark street alley,the deeply wounded student in the class, the purpose hungry girl who longs for a better reason to live, the searching collegue?

Life's lesson is still hard to learn..the dying to self is still so unnatural and painful..but i see no other way. And to the Saviour that first love me, and now whom i love with all that i am..knowing Him makes it all so worth-it!

When i don't understand, I trust because He is trust-worthy.
When i fear, I held on even tighter because in Him i know i am safe.
When i'm in pain, i go to the One who Himself understood what pain is
And in His presence strength through it all.

So yeah...thinking..